How is it we find ourselves flowing through life until one day it seems at a stop? That feeling of being stuck in a rut is common to everyone, yet it feels so isolating and frustrating at the same time. I don’t know how we get this way, or why, but it seems as though it happens without warning disrupting our lives. Lately, I have had this feeling of moving past the losses, leaving the past behind, while trying to focus my eyes on a future that seems rather blurry and confusing. Have you experienced this?
With so much uncertainty, I decided to turn to a little research. What was I searching for? To be honest, I wasn’t sure. I knew, however, when I found it I would know it. This ended up being a fun adventure. I tossed through books of quotes and biography’s, read pages upon pages of other perspectives I found across the internet, and I still couldn’t put my finger on what I was looking for. Tonight, however, I finally found it! While I was crawling out of bed from tossing and turning at 3:00 in the morning for a drink of water, I happened to walk by my desk and saw out of the corner of my sleepy eye stashed away on the bottom shelf my old notebooks. I had forgotten they were there and haven’t given them any thought in some time. Curiosity ignited in me like a firework bursting in the sky. Of course, I had to look. I started going through them with pages of my old thoughts, notes, and ideas for other writing projects. I started remembering memories of when I wrote them down, where I was when or what was happening when I thought of these things and couldn’t help but smile as I felt myself begin to fly again. I laughed as I realized, I had my answers all along, and I had forgotten them.
As I laughed at my own irony, I began to wonder how often this happens. How often do we forget a part of who we are or little things that make us feel happy or alive? Life, as we know, can be hard and sometimes feel cruel. But it can also be happy, wonderful, and feel as though you can fly through the clouds on love and dreams. This quizzical combination of emotions sends us all down twisted labyrinths as we get lost in our own lives. I only hope we can all find a way to ignite our spark again when we feel stuck or lost in ourselves. We all have our own path to follow and it is my hope that we can all find the light to help us find our way through the darkness each time it comes calling.
Of course, I have to share at least one quote I found. You all know I love a good quote. So, I will leave you with this thought. An author named Mandy Hale once said, “Sometimes when you lose your way, you find yourself.” This is what I have recently experienced and if you are out there feeling lost or confused about your future, look inside yourself. You may be surprised and happy with what you will find there.
Good night, everyone.
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